Chris Williamson - Ashley Cain

1) Ashley Cain, a former footballer and reality TV star, describes the moment he found out about his daughter's leukemia diagnosis, how he felt in a state of shock and that his life completely changed from that moment on. He explains that his partner went straight to their daughter's side, while he spent a year in the hospital trying to figure out how he could take away his daughter's illness, but ultimately came to the realization that the only thing they could control was the environment in which their daughter was in.

2) Ashley talks about his daughter's battle with cancer and the challenges they faced during her treatment. He describes how his daughter was a fighter and managed to complete the first cycle of chemotherapy with no side effects. However, after round two, it was apparent that the standard treatment plan would not work, and a stem cell transplant was necessary. Finding a donor was difficult, but the family received tremendous support from the public, with over 80,000 people registering to be potential donors in one weekend alone.

3) Ashley Cain shares a heartfelt moment of his life when his daughter was undergoing treatment for a rare form of leukemia. Despiteconstant hospital observations and the trauma associated with his daughter's diagnosis and treatment, he shares how he was able to find the most beautifultime of his life with his daughter. He describes how he made the most of the limited resources available to him during that time and held on to thegratefulness for every additional day he got to spend with her. He also talks about how his daughter underwent a successful stem cell transplant and how they thought they were on their way to remission before receiving the news that she had relapsed.

4) Ashley explains how he refused to accept a bleak prognosis from doctors when his daughter's cancer returned. He searched for treatments abroad, finally finding one in Singapore costing over a million pounds. He started a GoFundMe campaign which raised the required funds within five hours, showing the incredible generosity of humanity, despite social media being often seen as a cynical place. Unfortunately, this happy moment was short-lived as doctors discovered tumors in his daughter's brain, disqualifying her from the Singaporean treatment or radiotherapy, which threatened to rupture the tumors and making chemotherapy into the spinal cord too risky. The devastated family would have to take their daughter home.

5) Ashley describes the moment he had to take his daughter home to die and the emotional pain he felt. He goes on to explain that he went from having hope to feeling all hope was lost and how much he underestimated the importance of having hope. He talks about his daughter's health and how she fought for three weeks instead of the two days doctors predicted. Cain describes how he felt when he realized the final morning was upon them.

6) Ashley recounts the moment when his daughter, Zadie, passed away. He describes how he and his partner spent months in the hospital with Zadie, trying to be strong for each other. When Zadie finally passed away, their relationship was deeply affected. They didn't want to think about anything other than their loss and struggled to rebuild their relationship afterward. Ashley emphasizes the difficulty of losing a child and how it changes one's life forever.

7) Ashley Cain discusses how he and his ex-girlfriend, Safiyya Vorajee, have a stronger relationship than ever before despite their separation. He explains that their love for their daughter, who passed away due to cancer, and their shared mission to evoke positive change in the fight against childhood cancer has brought them closer than ever. However, Ashley admits that he has left permanent damage in regards to his ability to pursue another relationship due to the trauma he has experienced.

8) Ashley shares the life-changing moment that he experienced after writing his daughter's eulogy. He reflects on the difficulty of trying to write a masterpiece that could honor and commemorate his daughter while going through immense grief. Despite turning to whiskey to numb the pain, he eventually realized that he needed to honor the promise that he made to his daughter to take her all around the world. This moment compelled him to push through the dark moments and find the strength to move forward and honor his daughter's memory.

9) Ashley talks about the toughest moment of his life and how he has struggled to find a reason to live after losing his daughter. He candidly admits that he contemplated suicide and recalls a specific moment where he stood on a bridge, ready to jump. However, he was reminded of his love for his mother and wrote a message to her before preparing to jump. Ashley emphasizes the trauma of losing a child and the difficulty in finding purpose after experiencing such a profound loss.

10) Ashley recounts a moment of being on the brink of suicide while on a bridge, then being pulled off by police officers in full gear. While engaged in a physical altercation with the police, one officer named Jesus pulls he back from the edge. Despite the embarrassment of being caught in such a vulnerable state, he admits to being open about his struggles and using his platform to give hope to others. The realization of how close he came to traumatizing his family and friends weighs heavily on him, yet he still finds hope through his faith.

11) Ashley Cain talks about the difficulty of earning back trust and respect after experiencing a low point in life. He acknowledges that being transparent and emotionally intelligent have helped him in this journey, as he works towards proving himself and achieving things since that time. Ashley emphasizes the importance of self-analysis and challenging oneself to step outside of their comfort zone to foster growth and gain power. This mindset allowed him to face his fear of heights and obtain a skydiving license, which showed him the importance of stepping outside of one's comfort zone. Ashley Cain discusses why he is now taking on extreme events like running races and putting his body through intense challenges, emphasizing the value of pushing oneself beyond perceived limits.

12) Ashley Cain shares how he copes with grief and advises people going through the same process to confront their emotions head-on. He believes that everyone on this planet will experience grief at some point and that the circle of grief always stays the same. Though it is painful, Ashley asserts that grief can also be the most beautiful time of one's life because it holds memories of the person that one loves and has lost. Ashley's grief has become a part of his life, and he has never tried to run away from it, compress it, or hide it. He says that from his struggle and pain, he found his strength and purpose.

13) Ashley discusses the importance of normalizing the topic of grief and how people who have lost a loved one want to talk about the memories they have of that person. He emphasizes that it's essential to be there for that person and listen to them during their grieving process. Ashley then shares his upcoming events, including his goal to climb the seven highest mountains in the seven continents and his participation in a thousand-mile kayak race that is supposed to be the world's toughest survival endurance race.

14) Ashley talks about how he refused to take money to promote a product because he wanted to be taken seriously when he had a meaningful message to deliver. He even went through a financial crisis, gave up alcohol, and did physical challenges to raise awareness for a foundation without getting any money for it. When he was ready for any opportunity, chances started coming, and he ultimately went on a race that could have fatalities. He realized that he needed to do it because he didn't want to let his daughter and himself down. Ashley's message for people is to appreciate what you have in your life and to never give up, no matter how difficult your situation is.

15) Ashley shares his outlook on happiness and how he values fulfillment and self-worth over temporary forms of validation that lead to happiness. He believes that mental health issues often stem from a lack of self-worth and self-confidence and emphasizes the importance of showing up every day and doing what is necessary to build those qualities. He explains how he starts every day the same way by earning his respect and looking in the mirror, which motivates him to continue working hard throughout the day. He then provides an example of a typical day in his life, which is filled with various projects and activities aimed at achieving his goals and maintaining his physical well-being.

16) Ashley discusses the numerous tasks he juggles throughout the day. He spends up to five hours daily training, handling 30-50 communication efforts, and balancing recovery and food intake amid all this. Cain's typical sleep pattern lasts only four to five hours daily, and he wakes up around 4:20 a.m. He detests having free time and prefers his manager to fill every bit of his schedule. Cain refrains from any dating endeavors at present and has mixed feelings regarding fathering another child since he feels it would be unfair to that child to offer any less love than what he gave Azaylia.